fuck politics fuck you fuck starving everyone fuck privilige fuck you fuck it. what do you want from me how to live today, how to know enough to get by. how to care how to open anything at all without wrecking the whole system the uselessness of trying. the slowly incapable. the choice you've made and the ones inescapable. so fuck you and your notions of by rote fuck you and fuck me too, fuck this attempt and fuck the next. fuck caring, fuck knowing that yoiu are critically corcerning yourself with someones elses academic problem fuck it fuck who you are enough times and he'll be with you for ever, same as it is with anyone. fuck me especially always cuz i hate this. i hate trying to live and trying to sleep and trying to die and trying to try. is there a point to to trying anything? probably not, but that's not terribly important now is anything.