bleh i think

that i remember a time when
beer tasted good,

maybe that was earlier this evening before it was so warm, maybe it was a dream i had once where all the colors were impossibly bright and i was in love, i wrote some crap and i erased it cuz it was stoooopid, i do that alot.

i feel kinda like an idiot and the longer i'm left alone the more i feel like it too, but to tell you the truth i like being alone alot because i don't feel like i have to do anything for anyone, i really am this critical of everyone's stupid ass behavior, i act like a total dolt myself, but usually on a personal level.
i am not really much of an individualist though. it's not the way outta anything. cars are a major problem. isn't just gas either making all that energy any which way is pretty difficult.

and what to do ever but wait to see.

i sleep all day right now, i'm too lazy to do anything.

i am sunken boredom and tepid frustration.

sometimes i find it impossible to sit up a thought runs through my head that is panic basically of the color don't do that if you get up you'll die. i'm not sure what i'm scared of.