this has been a long time coming but i don't know what to do now that it is here, i am feeling really strange in this space i feel unwanted and useless right now. not reallyanxious about it, that is how i feel, there's no number of fucking coats of paint that can cover this anymore, well boo, i am going to go figure out somethign fun to do, you know: all spiritual reevaluation and no play make jack go fucking crazy...