shit is fucked
so many times today i've told myself that it's a big fucking joke, nobody was supposed to go before me, no one i have ever cared about. i feel like i'm in a room that doesn't even exist yet so much so that it's not even white and although there isn't even space yet my legs are half way submerged in the floor that doesn't exist, also it's falling towards a mass i can't see at a ridiculous rate, i feel sick.

Skylar is gone and he's never coming back and i was already missing him, now i just feel sick.